Getting Ready........

I hate going away from my home for a couple days. Perhaps it's because I hate any thing that has to do with packing. Well I will be going to Kissimmee to spend time with my family. Also with T-Ray and his family. This will be an adventure that I can wait for. When ever my family gets together there is always a fight. Then the old neighborhood is really not one of my most favorite places to go too. But the Twins and Trinity's dad is out now, so he would probably like too see them. Or maybe not, he didn't even call them when he got back to Kissimmee. " What a loving father " He is probably the reason why I find it so hard to trust any man. I guess it will be nice to be around my family for the Holidays.

I guess I can also use this as a time to spend some major time with T-Ray and his family. Try to see if I can get a little bit closer to him. I need to try and settle down. Sooner better than later. I'm ready to be a wife and not just a girlfriend. T-Ray did say he wanted to marry me. Maybe it's about time I stop "beating around the bush". My problem is I hate the thought of putting my guard down and then getting hurt again. Maybe T-Ray is young, but what does age have to do with it. He loves my kids & and they love him. He accepts me for who I am. Above all that, I know in my heart he loves me. I think I should give him a chance, maybe. We'll see how this weekend goes :)

It's cold out here where I live today. I know I should not complain, I could be living in 6degree weather. I don't think I could take that bone chilling cold anymore. Although sometimes I really miss it. It's been a long time since I been back home ( New York ). I really miss it when I see things on T.V. that remind me of it. I would like to go skating at Rockerfeller Center. I think I spelled it right. If not, OOOPS..... I sometimes wonder what it would be like to live there again.