Why????

Why is it that some people have to be such a fucking disappointment. Today I really need to write my feelings down. I am so pissed the fuck off. Why is it every time I think someone is actually a good person. I realize they are actually the scum of the earth just like every other dush bag I meet. Here I have been social with this so called " nice guy " for the past 4 or 5 month's. In this time , we talk a lot about different things. Never once had we talked about anything besides friendship. Well naturally I start to take interest in him. Really it was a dream that actually got me to take interest in him. Point of the matter is, I started thinking about him. I still never said nothing to him about these feelings. So last night he comes in the hotel. I thought to myself that I might express some of these feelings to him today. Not physically, just verbally.

Of course I only get to see him when he has to work in this area. He is from Georgia. He drives down here almost every weekend for work. So he comes in with his partner last night. I give him a hug, and he hugs back. He comments on how good I smell. So of course I take this as a good sign. BIG MISTAKE!!!!!!!! So he spends most of his night up here at the front desk talking to me. We both start to express interest in one another. I was actually starting to feel sort of good about the situation.

It was about 11:00 p.m. When he calls to the front desk. He starts joking around on the phone. Then the true" Dick Head " comes outta him. He asks me if I wanna come to his room after work. So I could stay with him and his partner. So for lack of better words. He actually thought I was going to sleep with him and his co-worker.

Are you fucking kidding me. What a true FUCKING ASSHOLE. Rest assure I will not be speaking to him anymore. What the hell is up here. Where is my luck with men at??????