When reality sets in !!!!!

When reality sets in, is when everything that was a blurr suddenly comes to light. For so long I could not give up on these feelings I feel inside for my ex. But we had a talk yesterday. I realized something from that talk. I have to move on with my life. Those feelings have to go deep down in the back of my heart. I'm sure I will never forget that they are there. But I should not dwell on those feelings anymore. I love him and I will always love him, but he is my past now. As much as I hate too admit it, he is not my future. When we talked I felt like my heart broke. In my twisted reality, I thought we could have a future together. I was wrong, I was hanging on to the past. I guess it's time to close this chapter in my life.

I don't know what my future holds. Or who my future is supposed to be with. But I'm sure I will find him. Either he's somewhere out there, or already in my life. I don't know!!!!!

Just A Thought.......

Do you remember what it was like when you first fell in love, or anytime you fell in love? That feeling that you wished would never go away. The way that person made you feel was almost UN-real. Every minute away from them felt like an eternity. The butter-flies you would get in your stomach every time you would see them, even if you just saw them yesterday. The way they could bring a smile to your face, even if they were not there. The way you could not imagine your life without them. When they kissed you!!!! it felt like every hair on your body would stand up, and when they touched you. It felt like your heart was beating like a drum. How all the simple, silly things remind you of them. How no matter what is going on in your life, the sound of their voice makes it all worth while.

I know we have all experienced that feeling at some time in our lives. Some of us might be lucky enough too have experienced it more than once. We spend most of our lives trying to find that feeling. For us who have felt it than lost it, spend the rest of our lives trying to get it back. Some times if you look to hard, you will get lost. You will find what you think is love, but it is really nothing more than a substitute for the real thing. That is what happens sometimes. We waste our time with the substitutes, while the real thing is probably passing us by. If there is one thing I have learned in life. If you find love, you will know. The feelings it gives you in your soul will let you know it is the real deal. I've felt it before and certainly yearn to feel it again.

I don't know the meaning of this post. I just wanted to write what I was thinking.